After less than a year battling with colon cancer, my friend's father passed away today. I was there when he drew his last breath. It was a heartbreaking moment.
To my dearest friend, you know I love you and I'm always here for you. You’re a strong girl. I’m praying for your late father and your family.
My chest hurt, my dearest, beloved friend is sad. :(
Al-fatihah.
Monday, January 26, 2009
Monday, January 5, 2009
This Time Around
Will Young - Changes
To me, the new Gregorian year starts on my birthday, which falls today . The song above is my anthem for this year's birthday. It conveys the feeling that I failed to express properly in writings.
10 years ago on this day, my boyfriend flew back from US to surprise me on my birthday. Back then I was young, happy in a relationship and healthy. However, my now ex-boyfriend is married to someone else and blessed with 2 daughters. I on the other hand, still young :P and diagnosed with a rare,chronic nerve disease that I've never heard of before. Relationship-wise, I still..to put it positively, haven't been picked, yet.
And I will never ever forget 2008. It was quite an eventful year. Within 1 year, I was hospitalized twice, went through an open heart surgery, experiencing a painful chest tube (and an enjoyable narcotics along the way..teehee), a much more painful Anesthesia Awareness, and saw 2 people (a Code Blue situation on one of them) die while in the hospital. (p/s I know, I’ve promised some of you to blog about this, sabar yea :D)
Therefore, I'm very much grateful and thankful to Allah The Almighty for letting me live through another year. Once again, Alhamdulillah.
Monday, December 22, 2008
Reeling Matter
Through my best friend, I discovered the greatness of Persian films. Leila (Google please, am too lazy to provide links) is one of my favorite movies. I applauded the director for brilliantly evoked a romantic emotions between husband and wife without the actor and actress making physical contact to each other. No sex scene was required and yet it was so sensual. That's genius to me. Being able to be creative even with limitations.
And that's why I don't totally agree with the local movie-making business. Some people worshiped this one particular lady director for being gutsy in her films. Her films are good at some point. But the way she portrays Islam is a bit misleading to me. And let's not get into her many,many sexual innuendos. Though not explicit, it could be so irksome. I don't really see the Eastern values or identity in her films anyway.
Prude, conservative, closed-minded, whateverla. That's just my humble opinion. And you should watch more Persian films!
And that's why I don't totally agree with the local movie-making business. Some people worshiped this one particular lady director for being gutsy in her films. Her films are good at some point. But the way she portrays Islam is a bit misleading to me. And let's not get into her many,many sexual innuendos. Though not explicit, it could be so irksome. I don't really see the Eastern values or identity in her films anyway.
Prude, conservative, closed-minded, whateverla. That's just my humble opinion. And you should watch more Persian films!
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Tagged Again
I've just realized that I had drafted this entry like a month ago. So since I have nothing clever to blog, I present you..a tag, tagged by Ms.Prudential! :P
Starting time : 11.56 am
Name : Temi Tyler Danes Kurkova
Sisters : 1
Brothers : 2
Shoe size : 6
Height : five four
Where do you live : intelligent city
Have you ever been on a plane : yep
Swam in the ocean : yep
Fallen asleep at school : of course!
Broken someone's heart : hhmm...probably
Fell off your chair : can't remember
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : yep..used to
Saved e-mails : yep
What is your room like : small
What’s right beside you: armoire
What is the last thing you ate : super slim cheddar cheese slice
Ever had...
Chicken pox : yep
Sore throat : yep
Stitches : oh my yes, 4 inches of them
Broken nose : nope
Do you...
Believe in love at first sight : not anymore
Who was/were...
The last person you danced with : probably my baby bro, during our karaoke session
Last made you smile : a colleague at work
You last yelled at : hhmm can't remember
Today did you...
Talk to someone you like : i generally like everyone at my work place so that would be yes
Kissed anyone : my parents' hands
Get sick : haha what a question...
Talk to an ex : nope
Miss someone : nope
Who do you really hate: hate is such a strong word
Do you like your hand-writing : always looks fine to me
Are your toe nails painted : nope
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in : eric bana or james franco ngehehehehheee
What color shirt are you wearing now : grey
Are you a friendly person : moderately so
Do you have any pets : not fond of any domestic animals
Do you sleep with the TV on: sometimes
What are you doing right now : learning ABC, alif ye miim..buayeeeee :P
Can you handle the truth : yep
Are you closer to your mother or father : both i think
Do you eat healthy : i wish i could
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex : nope
If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to : myself is my own comfort
Are you loud or quiet most of the time : quiet
Are you confident : depends on the situation
5 things I was doing 10 years ago:
1.IRC-ing
2.fall in love through IRC
3.was in a long-distance relationship
4.tak ingat
5.seriously tak ingat
5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
1.make sure that my family has a comfortable life
2.send some of my relatives to perform hajj or umrah
3.set up an orphanage home
4.buy an audi car
5.pay someone to beat up siti nurhaliza (haha kidding la..tade idea ni)
5 of my bad habits:
1.easily irritated
2.impatient
3.spend too much time on the Internet
4.
5.
5 places I've lived/living:
1.pj
2.muddy banks
3.intelligent city
4.london (in my dreams)
5.geneva (also in my dreams)
5 people I tag: no one.
Starting time : 11.56 am
Name : Temi Tyler Danes Kurkova
Sisters : 1
Brothers : 2
Shoe size : 6
Height : five four
Where do you live : intelligent city
Have you ever been on a plane : yep
Swam in the ocean : yep
Fallen asleep at school : of course!
Broken someone's heart : hhmm...probably
Fell off your chair : can't remember
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : yep..used to
Saved e-mails : yep
What is your room like : small
What’s right beside you: armoire
What is the last thing you ate : super slim cheddar cheese slice
Ever had...
Chicken pox : yep
Sore throat : yep
Stitches : oh my yes, 4 inches of them
Broken nose : nope
Do you...
Believe in love at first sight : not anymore
Who was/were...
The last person you danced with : probably my baby bro, during our karaoke session
Last made you smile : a colleague at work
You last yelled at : hhmm can't remember
Today did you...
Talk to someone you like : i generally like everyone at my work place so that would be yes
Kissed anyone : my parents' hands
Get sick : haha what a question...
Talk to an ex : nope
Miss someone : nope
Who do you really hate: hate is such a strong word
Do you like your hand-writing : always looks fine to me
Are your toe nails painted : nope
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in : eric bana or james franco ngehehehehheee
What color shirt are you wearing now : grey
Are you a friendly person : moderately so
Do you have any pets : not fond of any domestic animals
Do you sleep with the TV on: sometimes
What are you doing right now : learning ABC, alif ye miim..buayeeeee :P
Can you handle the truth : yep
Are you closer to your mother or father : both i think
Do you eat healthy : i wish i could
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex : nope
If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to : myself is my own comfort
Are you loud or quiet most of the time : quiet
Are you confident : depends on the situation
5 things I was doing 10 years ago:
1.IRC-ing
2.fall in love through IRC
3.was in a long-distance relationship
4.tak ingat
5.seriously tak ingat
5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
1.make sure that my family has a comfortable life
2.send some of my relatives to perform hajj or umrah
3.set up an orphanage home
4.buy an audi car
5.pay someone to beat up siti nurhaliza (haha kidding la..tade idea ni)
5 of my bad habits:
1.easily irritated
2.impatient
3.spend too much time on the Internet
4.
5.
5 places I've lived/living:
1.pj
2.muddy banks
3.intelligent city
4.london (in my dreams)
5.geneva (also in my dreams)
5 people I tag: no one.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
The Cities I'm Living
A lof of people, especially my family and non-Uni friends had been questioning my decision to stay at this so-called "intelligent city". Having been living in a big city called “muddy banks” since I was a baby, I used to think I wouldn’t live anywhere but my beloved city. In those days, I couldn’t live without going to the malls and hang out with friends on weekends. Moreover, my home is so near to the city center and public transportations are very, very accessible. My parents taught me to board the public bus at the tender age of 9 so I saw the public bus evolved from Bas Sri Jaya to Bas Mini to Intrakota and finally RapidKL. I spent 5 years in a right-smack-in-the-city-all-girls-high-school (now say hello to pavilion) and 2 years diploma in another popular part of the city, I can safely say that I had my fair share of city life.
However, seasons change and so do people. My beloved city is now so dense, I wonder where are all these people came from? I’ve been avoiding any invitations to go out to the city on weekends, I hate the traffics and LRT rides are no longer enjoyable. I can’t remember when was the last time I took a bus because I don’t understand the bus system anymore!
When I first came to “intelligent city” for my degree, I didn’t like it at all and I went home every weekend. Now I’m so used to this place and I like it here. And so here I am, living in a quiet, stress-free “intelligent city”. Unlike my neighbourhood at my beloved city where we can find food stalls every 5 steps, the nearest goreng pisang stall is 8km away. The good part is, some good friends are here, my work place is just a 5 minutes drive (3 minutes if the traffic lights are being kind all the way) and certainly no traffics jams. It’s like being in a foreign land without actually going abroad (ewahh!!) because you can find mat sallehs, Arabs, iranians, Mongolians, whatever, during office lunch hour. Anyway, it’s only 45 minutes away from my hometown so I can always go home whenever I’m feeling homesick.
Putatan, Utan Aji or Buloh Kasap you name it, I think I can live in it. Hahahah poyo je...
p/s my wonderful header was designed by the lovely Ney! Thanx muahs muahs!
However, seasons change and so do people. My beloved city is now so dense, I wonder where are all these people came from? I’ve been avoiding any invitations to go out to the city on weekends, I hate the traffics and LRT rides are no longer enjoyable. I can’t remember when was the last time I took a bus because I don’t understand the bus system anymore!
When I first came to “intelligent city” for my degree, I didn’t like it at all and I went home every weekend. Now I’m so used to this place and I like it here. And so here I am, living in a quiet, stress-free “intelligent city”. Unlike my neighbourhood at my beloved city where we can find food stalls every 5 steps, the nearest goreng pisang stall is 8km away. The good part is, some good friends are here, my work place is just a 5 minutes drive (3 minutes if the traffic lights are being kind all the way) and certainly no traffics jams. It’s like being in a foreign land without actually going abroad (ewahh!!) because you can find mat sallehs, Arabs, iranians, Mongolians, whatever, during office lunch hour. Anyway, it’s only 45 minutes away from my hometown so I can always go home whenever I’m feeling homesick.
Putatan, Utan Aji or Buloh Kasap you name it, I think I can live in it. Hahahah poyo je...
p/s my wonderful header was designed by the lovely Ney! Thanx muahs muahs!
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Reminiscence On a Rainy Night
Gosh, it's the end of November already? My, how time flies. It reminds me of things that I went through, physically and emotionally, a year ago.
Now things are different. Though I'm still sick, I'm much more happier. No more secrets and hiding. No more emotionally dependent and abused. No regrets about it too because at least I got to learn the true nature of some people, even after so long. Alhamdulillah, I'm blessed with loving, the most patient and understanding family and friends. I can never thanked them enough for sticking up with me because I know I'm not the loveliest person in the world. Though it might sound too cliché, light at the end of the tunnel do exist. When some people went out of your life, there will be others who rise to the occasion, hold your hand and stand by your side through ups and downs.
Actually I've been making mental notes to blog about the events of 2008 in my life; the operation, hospital stays and most importantly, my health condition before those stuffs being totally forgotten from my mind. But I'm preoccupied with what else, real life. Since I have to get a lot of rest, I spent minimal time with lappy (my personal laptop) because dappy (desktop) consumed my energy at work. I know some of you are curious about my disease. No it's not multiple sclerosis but it's the less popular "sibling". Think Paris and Nicky Hilton. :)
p/s It's here!! Yippedo da yay!
Now things are different. Though I'm still sick, I'm much more happier. No more secrets and hiding. No more emotionally dependent and abused. No regrets about it too because at least I got to learn the true nature of some people, even after so long. Alhamdulillah, I'm blessed with loving, the most patient and understanding family and friends. I can never thanked them enough for sticking up with me because I know I'm not the loveliest person in the world. Though it might sound too cliché, light at the end of the tunnel do exist. When some people went out of your life, there will be others who rise to the occasion, hold your hand and stand by your side through ups and downs.
Actually I've been making mental notes to blog about the events of 2008 in my life; the operation, hospital stays and most importantly, my health condition before those stuffs being totally forgotten from my mind. But I'm preoccupied with what else, real life. Since I have to get a lot of rest, I spent minimal time with lappy (my personal laptop) because dappy (desktop) consumed my energy at work. I know some of you are curious about my disease. No it's not multiple sclerosis but it's the less popular "sibling". Think Paris and Nicky Hilton. :)
p/s It's here!! Yippedo da yay!
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
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